In trying to work myself out of the funk, the word 'harmony' kept crossing my mind. I'm lacking harmony. Nothing feels right. Back and forth, an imaginary aerial banner. Harmony. But what is it? It's one of those words that is better defined by feelings than by words. Before becoming obsessive about it, I decided to let it be and promised myself to just make a mental note whenever I felt good on the inside.
Days and weeks passed. Sleep. Coffee. Phone calls. Reports. Family time. Runs. Skype calls. Spreadsheets. Dinners. Errands. Netflix. Magazines. Emails. I took note.
A general goal of mine is to not be defined by one thing; one activity, one perspective, one moment. And I definitely don't want to come across as someone who is intimidating or puts pressure on others. So I try not to talk about or encourage running too much...
As the days and weeks passed, there were many mental notes on days I caught up with friends and family, and on running days. But for the reasons listed above, I disregarded running and forged ahead to find that harmony!
We all have those people in our lives who frequently know us better than we know ourselves. Well, one of 'those' people recently reminded me that running makes both of us healthier, happier, more productive and positive. True.
It is hard to deny a proven fact. And the fact is, running makes me feel good inside. When I'm up early, in the zone with reggae beats in my ears, or running alongside a good pal, I'm at peace. Head, heart, arms, legs all feel like one machine. Running is where I find my harmony.
Just this morning, I was at the Girls on the Run 5K in Hamden, a celebration of a team of girls, coaches, and their 3 month season together. The 5K is an achievement for every girl and every running buddy, no matter what. Maybe all 100 girls and running buddies will continue running and add miles and miles to their legs. Or maybe some will wake up tomorrow morning, proud of their accomplishment and ready to return to their hockey team, go to their cello lesson, read the latest J.K. Rowling book, take their dog for a walk, or find a new hobby. Girls on the Run is not about running. It's about empowering and helping each other find our own harmony. It's about being different, together.
And running isn't about moving my legs quickly. It's about setting and working towards a continuous goal. It's about celebrating the little and big achievements. Its about clearing the excess thoughts that clutter my mind. Its about smiling. It's about being at peace. It's about feeling happy. It's about discovering my harmony, over and over again.
So I guess running doesn't define me by one thing...
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